[	Expression	|	tired	]
[	Trax Spin'nin	|	"best of all time" by anjels	]

jobschedule_ [^updated]
0103:/ 10am-6pm [training]
0104:/ 10am-3pm [training]
0105:/ 2pm-7pm
0106:/ 11am-7pm
0107:/ 12pm-8pm
total: 21 hours
0108:/ 12pm-6pm
0109:/ off
0110:/ off
0111:/ 9am-7pm
0112:/ 12pm-6pm
0113:/ 9am-5pm
0114:/ 1pm-8pm
total: 37 hours

^happy birthday _baby..
[01/05]
your the best of all time..
your all i want in life..
every little thing just blow my mind..
you ain't got it.. i don't need it..
your the best of all time..
so good to me make me wanna cry..
your all i want in life..
your the best of all time..
♥ ♥ ♥

[	Expression	|	tired	]
[	Trax Spin'nin	|	"eat, sleep, think" by connie mckendrick	]

i had to keep myself occupied today since the boyfriend was suppose to go to class, but ended up not and he went to go get his hair did..

i went to salida, co today.. its a small town about 30mins away from where i live and thats were i work also. i went to walmart today and bought a 2 new labrets and earrings for work so i could hide them without them noticing them haha..

went home and took 2 new pictures today [seen below] they are dedicated to my baby of course.. i cleaned my room, rearranged my closest, worked out, and prepare myself for work tomorrow.. also waited for the boyfriend to come home and talked to him on the phone for like an hour and half.. and then his phone card died.. haha ghettoness..

im about to go to sleep soon because i gotta wake up hella early like at 6am to get ready for work because my training is all the way in canon city, co which is about an hour and half away from where i live.. and i start at 10am and won't get out until 6pm.. and wont be home until 7:30ish...

good news.. i have another job interview next monday [0109] for a dental assistant position.. lucky its my day off, but imma try to work 2 jobs and save up money.. so i hope i get the job because im working towards me and him.. so glad he's in my life.

♥he truely does make me happy..

[	Expression	|	content	]
[	Trax Spin'nin	|	"running" by no doubt	]

here's the start of 2006.. but lemme think about '05 for a bit..

2005.. was a learning experience for me.. since the beginning of the year i was moving from san diego to colorado and it was a big change for me.. me leaving friends and the city life.. coming home to a small town that only has 3,000 as a population.. also experienced my grandma passing away in may.. that broke my heart. I still remmeber what she said to me the night before she has a heartattack.. "your special to me, all my grandkids are special to me, but you.. you always been the most creative one in the family.. i'm worried about you moving to san francisco, but i know you will do just fine.. just remember i love you.".. after she passed i went back to the bay in may.. i had everything in order, a job, a career [in modeling], a place, a car, and a loving boyfriend after 7 months.. trying to build a life for us.. but in the end.. i got fucked over and cheated on.. went into depression and lost everything.. and i mean everything.. even my wallet.. i had to live with a homie for a hot minute and discovered who were my true friends in the bay area.. i was so fucked up as a person i turned to drugs again and fucked with people emotions.. [to those i apologise.. i wasn't ready.. i was still scared from my last one and i just wanted to move on with my life..].. i wasn't doing well so i decided to go back to colorado so i could get my life back together and take care of my mother..

"one minute your up.. the next minute your down.." -janet jackson

thats how i describe my 2005 year.. it went down to up then to down again like a rollercoaster with learning experiences..

now its a new year.. with new expecations.. now im ready to face the world again.. a little more smarter and a little more determined. i have my goals and plans set out and imma work harder this time to succeed in what i believe in.

i am slowly building my life once again.. right now i have a job and a loving boyfriend to back me up and work towards to. i've been saving money towards me and him and building a life with him.. i have a feeling that he won't treat me like the others.. he's the one i've been waiting for..

"Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated"
-"RUNNING" by NO DOUBT

[	Expression	|	determined	]
[	Trax Spin'nin	|	"the rain don't last" by hope	]

jobschedule_
0103:/ 10am-6pm [training]
0104:/ 10am-3pm [training]
0105:/ 2pm-7pm
0106:/ 9am-2pm
0107:/ 9am-2pm
total: 15 hours
0108:/ 12pm-6pm
0109:/ off
0110:/ off
0111:/ 9am-5pm
0112:/ 9am-5pm
0113:/ 9am-5pm
0114:/ 9am-5pm
total: 38 hours

newyeargoals&resolutions_
[ ] save money.
[ ] build a life.
[ ] get a 2nd job.
[ ] get a nicer body going on.
[ ] move outta colorado.
[ ] pay off credit cards.
[ ] buy new clothes.
[ ] get my 2nd degree. [changed majors to real estate]
[ ] get my cell working again.
[x] get my life back in order again..

[	Expression	|	loved	]
[	Trax Spin'nin	|	"you and me" by lifehouse	]

i love every little thing you do...
no one ever could compare to you.

-your something special in this life. you complete it all.